Dika.....the best man I know

I have gotten used to the fact that my life will be full of ups and downs, that my emotions will be erractic for a long time- i can feel very happy this moment and terribly sad the next. I have accepted that you are the one who got away and I may never get over it. I have gotten over my regrets, my wishes. I have even gotten over my confusion with God and religion. Everyday that comes, is another day that you are absent in my life. It's a fresh stab, a reminder that it's no longer 'us against the world' but it's just me now. I get angry at you sometimes, and angry at God. Sometimes I pity you and weep because you were not given a chance at life. The things you did, the businesses, the kindness, the projects, the helping of others, only you can do them. I am not cut out for them, I have tried and have come to the realisation that I can never fill your shoes. No one can. There have been many happy moments in my life since you left, but these moments do not f